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Oh, I'm not good at diets and fasting. I havent' been on diet in past 2 weeks. No fasts, no excersises. I don't know what'd happedend. I just decided to eat. I gained for about 1 pound, and I'm so so so so so so amazed it's not more than that. It's a strange feeling when you're saying to yourself, you can eat everything. Strange and new.

Now I have to say - NOT EATING IS BETTER FOR ME.

Eating is Ok for a day or two, or even a week, but after that time, you're so anxoius about the weight. Of course you're still counting callories, trying to eat only low fat things, but you eat everything you want and that's strange. And you're ashamed when people look at you. Do I look fatter or not? When will they realize I've gained? That's the question which apeears in your head one day. And since that moment you can't get rid of it.